Set it free
You don’t own me anymore
Play your hand n keep your enemies close
Afterall i am just sick of this joker creepin m zapping my energy n thoughts …well
Am I in the game am i heck just took took it n ran with it..
Attention? Yh can i have your attention please would the real slim shady please stand up.
Wrong answer we are all shady n we are all god.
Fuck this binary bullshit im on a trinity ting…
So ancient wisdoms keep telling me to try all sorts of things. While I appreciate the advice nothing is touching me..not really.
I do not want to be rid of them.
But they told me the other day:So, Aluna – if you have actual free will, then you are guilty if you do the wrong thing? even if you haven’t willed one way or the other you are still responsible?But if you do have free will, how can you ever fail to be free? If you have no control of the past, of all the events and other people around that made you -” us” who we are?Can still assume responsibly for it -?? Like yeah i can but it’s as if people around me don’t quite understand or won’t accept that.Is it just to them that sometimes irreversible psychological / brain damage can be done through kundalini / sunstances etc? But then it’s not their place to accept it because it’s my issue.
Awakening is always a painful, chaotic processes. Maybe i did it too fast – I was not ready to give up and transcend in such a short space of time??? I just feel so alone and afraid as I can see what I’ve chosen to do. So many regrets. Nobody understands but then why would they, before i awoke, eating shit drinking poison and seeking death, to a path of only things that repairs my DNA and my brain… but same time taking psychoactives and thinking I could be ready to reach my higher, timeless self. It was making me see and this experience was i not ready..? I’m just waiting now, I don’t know what for. To hover in limbo…. Maybe, is this not a bad thing? .maybe I will see that soon?My brain be like;
3.14 pie,
42 – the answer to the universe according to legends,
So,
If you take pie a 3 dimensional decimal number, and covert it into a simple flat 2D “whole” number you would add 3+1 = 4
42
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The answer that shows us binarys 1 and 2, good and back black and white etc…
Whereas pi represents loop of infinity, the circle of life. The spectrum, the colours –
42 is the wrong answer
3.1242 may seem logical, but human logic is not comprehensive,
Anyone ever thought that an outside force is actually the so called “psychosis?” Such as the governments and the associated establishments? And be it by “diagnoses” we get discredited about these experiances almost as if these things are not real…left to be experimented on and poisoned and yet none of the practices are ever brought to question? trust your word and nothing else… I’m saying the bigger picture of what could be going on gets pushed away, Well you can’t afford it… and the primary reason I know that is I can’t afford it… And if I can’t afford it… Then there is something terribly wrong with the system. because of the media and such….
Mind maps
Have we been wrong on the concept of Perfection all along, is it not of X and Y being devoid. Is it an equilibrium of X and Y. A duality perhaps, but have always tried for an equilibrium of it’s two side. Laws of attraction perhaps…? Reminds of past lives, and the mistakes i made, especially in Egypt…
See, i sold my soul for the wrong reasons,,, every life this karma attached ehhh… the part of me that isn’t actually present in my unity is dragged me onto another plane, onto the plane that it came from, feels like being a demon in heaven or an angel in hell, both opposites yet exactly the same experience. Paradoxical reflection of my existiential crisis atm…. Selling your soul, to me personally, is an act of transcendence or transference… the point is one can never reach nirvana with nihilism and vice versa.
Everything is so irrelevant yet fascinating and terrifying….
Politics and the world is horrific, for the most part, we see only a tiny flicker, our perspectives, so naturally it’s these causes, these battles under the name of which chase the clock until exhausted.Is to depersonalize a bad thing?
To see oneself from “outside” or to watch from an alien perspective can be an experiance to fear.
Yet compare this to platos cave;
A bigger picture, an unrecognizable reality, being lost in here, look further into the present; what humans are doing, where we are going, what we did, and apply all that to myself in the hear and now… My faults are our faults. Seems as if what is; just goes round in upwards loops evolving changing, take away from earth, look at our closets sister, venus, a planet that could be described as “literal hell”So, is depersonaliszation just a rush of existential crisis? Bewilderment yet washed away by nihilism? That all the collective civilisations do, past present future, essentially for nothing… no reason is there no ego like god to give us a prize at the end, just perhaps ourselves we meet on judgement day?Yet is it nihilism, really? The realisation that i am a speck of dust in the universe, my meaning being vastly beyond my mere capability comprehension. Such as a wall in a cave or a frog in a well, only knows how vast the ocean, it can only in its limited imagination…
I
dont know what plane the shadow people are in. Not quite normal because cant be contacted through normal means.
I don’t know why but they make me happy
I don’t see them happy tho
Weird.. they robbin my emotions i reckon… These are not nice beings
Not like demons, i don’t know what but i damn love surprises
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No really, i don’t i fkin hate ummmm Yo what ya doing?
You dont dictate my life….
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..”elle a trouvé son stylo et elle va a la salle de bain”
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Oh what you do
Pmsl watt 😂😑😶😎
Big bro alien
Always be watchin 🤠🤠🤠🤠
Do you even control the dream?
#keepinitrealLA LUTTE ÉTAIT TERMINÉE.
IL AVAIT REMPORTÉ LA VICTOIRE SUR LUI-MÊME.
IL AIMAIT BIG BROTHER.The struggle was finished
He had won the victory over himself
He loved big brother
#eyeseverywhere
Eyes everywhere. Maybe im paranoid, a trick of the mind #whoknows
Yep. There is nothing unique about this struggle. Dying and resurrecting gods and are all around us.
Mary Magdalene, Persephone, lilith. In a significant past life, I was Egyptian many claim I was one of the Cleopatras …but for certian the people of peace? the race behind the sun … was i grey? …. Been wanting to work with “her” but honestly i am not ready to. Best of luck. Heh
“History is always written by the winners.” So then; good and Bad is just an idea. If the other side won the war in heaven, Lilith is the Queen right now.
How do you know that it was Lilith and not one of her demonic daughters? She is not the first demon that I have been talking to fact that I have been working together with her for a few months but it’s just the fact that I stopped for a little, To give time to replenish. Then I don’t end up remembering about them until they give me signs or particles. I will not show her fear at all but at the same time I will not be disrespected by any means.
Shadow people…
I catch them in the corner of my eye…
I still reckon they are responsible for stealing my thoughts and sharing them.
But don’t try and hit one…
According to Revelation those who go to Heaven will worship the Lamb (Jesus) for eternity. I hear you. but there’s no god. He’s dead and we killed him – there is only you, me and I. …found the giant demons by an edge of the universe saw myself dead bleeding, met the part of me that wanted to die.The trapped rabbit and the moral delima, indoctrination or death. …Standing at my final judgment…Stuck at 3.14
Im looping again. Binary traps suck ffs
Stuck on this fucking encoding time and the illusionist lied. How many more times !!??